BFF

When I was little, I had an abundance of friends. It was easy then; you wanted to play hide-n-seek, and playmates came from all over to join you. Of course, only a few were awarded the label “best friend”. Even as a child, I knew that friendships come, and friendships go, and I was content in that notion, because there was a plethora of friends to chose from.

Today, friendships are not so easy. It takes more effort, more give and take. With my new confidence in tact (Ahem, Apple), I have discovered that some friendships, however entertaining, are not always the best thing for you. Sometimes it is good to step back and take a break, because we all need breaks sometimes.

As I get older, I have become pickier about who I let in my circle, and who deserves my time. I am very happy with the people in my life that I consider friends. I know I can count on them no matter what, whether it be crying like a baby after a breakup, or venting about everything under the sun.

I realize now, after all these years, that friendships do not come free, they must be earned and appreciated. I can not, and refuse to settle for less. I will leave you all with a quote that spoke volumes to me.

“The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for.”
- Maureen Dowd

Fallen Soldier

In the wake of the events that unfolded at Ft. Hood last night, I am disturbed and shaken to my core. How someone can have such disregard for human life is beyond my comprehension.

This act of hatred awakens feelings that I have suppressed since the 9/11 attacks. I was deeply moved then, and maybe even more so now. My brother just left for boot camp not 3 weeks ago, luckily stationed in a fort outside of Texas. I couldn’t help but wonder what the families are going through, thinking what if it were my brother’s fort. Not to sound overly dramatic, just overcome with emotion. It hit home for me.


My heart goes out to all family members and friends that were affected by this tragedy. It is things like this that remind me how important it is to live each day to the fullest, because you never know if it will be your last. I want all my family and friends to know that I love each and every one of you. Please keep all our soldiers in your prayers.

Self Acceptance

I am a firm believer in the power of the mind, the way your thoughts can provoke feelings of self doubt, or renewed confidence in one’s self. I for one, allow my thoughts to dictate my mood. I tell myself I can’t do something, and surprise, surprise, I don’t do it. I have inner struggles with myself, (taking crazy to a whole new level). I am a work in progress, but then aren’t we all?

What I lack in confidence, I make up for with my friends. I think people tend to surround themselves around others that they admire or aspire to be. One trait that I do not possess is an overly confident attitude. A “kiss my ass if you don’t like it”, if you will. I long for the day that I truly disregard others opinions of me. And as if the outside world’s views aren’t bad enough, I have an inner monologue of self doubt, playing like a broken record. Whoever said, “no one can make you feel inferior but yourself” is a genius. I control how I let people’s opinions affect me. Which means I have the power to change it.



I am blessed to be surrounded by friends that exude self confidence. Every one of my friends have strong characteristics that I admire. They help me see that I am stronger and more confident than I let on. For all my friends out there, I want to say thank you, for inspiring me daily to be the best that I can be, today. I want to leave you all with a quote that I love.

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
-- Dr. Seuss

The Non-Committal Man

So my short stint at dating has already come to a crashing halt. After escaping a 5 year relationship that really should have ended 3 years in, I was eager to get out in the dating world. Trying to heal my bruised ego, from months of self doubt in a relationship going nowhere, I was looking for someone that would boost my self esteem and renew my faith in men.

I guess that is a lot of expectations for my unsuspecting new date J

We met at a kickball tournament end of season bash (AKA Zypher’s) through connections of April, and I should of known from the start it was doomed. He went on about how he too had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship as well and was afraid of the idea of marriage. April forewarned me, but did I listen? No!! I was not looking for anything serious anyway, so I disregarded the warning signs, and voila, my dating disaster began.

My date, (let’s call him noncommittal man), and I had fun at first. We went out for dinners, watched movies together, even spent the day at the fair. But the more I got to know him, the more I realized why he was single. He was non committal towards everything. He was so worried about the idea of a “relationship” of any kind, that he didn’t want to meet my friends! That’s right folks, he was afraid to meet my friends b/c then people might think we were (gasp) dating!! He wasn’t looking for anything serious either.

I told him that if he ever wanted to date anyone, it would involve going out and being social. No such luck. So now I am done. I’m sorry, but trying to convince someone to hang out with my friends, is not my idea of someone I want to date.

I am not throwing in the towel yet, dating is still on the agenda, but maybe next time I will be more picky about who I will allow into my world.